website is open.

my website is up.

http://www.inthedesigns.net/billie

good-bye, blogger.

36; been a while.

Right, I guess I could say it's been a while. I haven't really been on the Internet that much in the past few days. I've been focusing on playing Sims since like... Thursday-ish? Oma came to North Carolina on Saturday and I've been out every day since.

Tomorrow is the Business Law exam, my final exam of my high school career, and graduation is on Thursday. Speaking of which, I got another 200$ for graduation from my uncle who hadn't sent me anything at all for seven years or so. I also received a neckalce today with my name engraved on a tassle and it says Samantha '09 on it.

Hm, after graduation...

1. I probably won't keep contact with anyone from school.

2. I don't know what I'll be doing afterwards that is useful. I can't drive legally until at least July 16, but I don't even want to drive anyway. I just want to move to a city so I don't have to drive! I can just walk places! My dad is trying to already rush me into finding a job and shit, and damn, I'm not ready for that. I just got out of high school, don't force me.

3. I can't go to college. I can't go to community college. I don't have the money.

I really wish I could've gotten that free trip to China now.

Being Asian/Korean would be easier so I could just audition for DSP, SM, or YG Entertainment for a while and be done. Gosh.

And I dunno when I'm getting my website up.

The more I put it off, the less I'm motivated for it.

35; uh, wtf.

Which crazy person decided to have Wonder Girls perform at Jonas Brothers' concert? Ugh.

Is their English (Wonder Girls') even GOOD?

34; bye-bye contacts.

I just deleted the contacts I don't talk to on MSN anymore and that was... my entire contact list. I only have one person on there now since I just added her. She can't use AIM anymore, so now I have her on MSN.

If I did the same for MSN, I'd have very little contacts too.

I don't want to be the one always having to IM you first, people.

You prove to me that you only want a large number on your list, hah.

Meh, whatever, haha.

I don't get on IM much anyway.

Forum > instant messenger now.

I want my website up already, hah.

I gave the order to Nicky and shall send money on Monday.

Then I can ditch Blogger, whoo. 

33; somewhere along in the bitterness.

I've officially realized something.

I DIDN'T ACTUALLY LIKE HIM.

If I did, I would've been in such a sour mood today from last night's messages.
But I'm not. If I'm not, I obviously did not like HIM.

I just liked the idea of being with somebody because everyone and their mom is freakin' dating.

I really wanna switch back to Tumblr at this point.

Blogger pisses me off sometimes and gives me ugly layouts. D:

But Blogger offers comments. -_-

32; i told him.

I told him I like him & 

now I'm waiting for hell to break loose, 

hah.

31; i'm staying away from MySpace.

I really need to, so I'm staying away from it for now, which is absolutely easier said than done.

I depend on MySpace too much. MySpace was the only thing I had to get "connected" with friends. Wha, friends? See, I only say I have school-friends, which is true. I don't talk with anyone on the phone. I rarely go and hang out with people. I don't get the variety anymore.

I also realize that I can't like someone I only have an online/text relationship. It's weird. It's in the same category as being in an online relationship with someone for two years while one person lives in the UK and another lives in the US and they've never even met before. Yes, just like that to me. 

I've already deleted MySpace from my bookmarks, so now I can't just use one click and be on it. That's less temptation right there and already makes everything a hell of a lot easier. 

I feel like I need to move and meet new people 'cause I've got nothing going for me now that graduation is in two-ish weeks. There's nothing for me here or I just can't find it. 

But it's all, all good. 

Now Gabi needs to help me move to Salem with her.

Clean slate right now.

Maybe I'm being "whiney", but I don't even care. :]